Everyone Struggles

i’ve been struggling a lot lately, if i’m being honest. i struggle with my mental health, with the loss of Elijah, with debt, with everything. things have felt so overwhelming since i lost Elijah. i feel like i’m here but i’m not actually here; like im floating in some second layer of the dimension looking out onto my life and walking through it but not actually living it.

i’m trying so hard to keep on task when i do things and stay distracted and busy. i’ve read two books and i’m starting a re-read of a fanfiction i enjoy a lot that i’m behind on updates for. i’m cooking dinners and drawing and reading mostly over the last week but nothing seems to ground me back in the world. but i can only take it day by day and keep going forward. it’s hard, but time will pass whether i want it to or not, and i need to not drown in my head. drowning is no way to live and i want to live my life, not just survive it.

it’s getting close to autumn, which i love. the cool air and the smells and just everything about it. i love when i step outside and my nose burns slightly inside from the cold, crisp, air. i’m hoping that with the turning of the season i’ll feel a little closer to myself. sweater weather is the best weather (LOL)!

i might make another sad pie tonight but not because i’m sad i just really want more pie…

anyways just a short update this week cuz of everything going on. enjoy this butterfly picture i drew earlier today :)

Sav <3